Health worries

Tuesday my husbands stepfather had a heart attack. They had to put in stints and now he has to be careful. It wasnt his first heart attack but still it got me thinking. My husband has a bad family history of heart problems and diabetes. He has a degenerating chest wall and his lower back has caused him trouble. His mother has degenerating disk disease. I have hypoglycemia, and mental health problems as well as early fibrocystic disease in my breasts.
I am now thinking more and more about how I can start to take care of myself and my husband.
I think we are going to have to start eating right, even exercising. I'm just not sure what all i need to do. Any one have any ideas?

Female Problems :(

UGH. Female Problems are EVIL!!!!!  I know that childbirth is supposed to be a lot worse but at least you get something out of it when its over. What do you get after the monthlies? only to go thru it again the next month.

Since regular pain meds don’t help me I am looking into natural ways to deal with it. I know that you can use lavender oil, and that you can use heat but what else is there? I am currently looking them up. I have about 20 years or so left to have my female problems. I had better learn to deal with them some how.

Mental Health Issues

Today I am again dealing with worry anxiety and depression. I am almost constantly either depressed or anxious. Or I am completely freaking out. I might be better off if I was able to talk to people about it but I have a hard time trusting any one. I want to be able to be happy more often. But I cant for some reason.

I am currently trying to cure my depression and anxiety by myself. But I wonder if I will even be able to. I am reading the Lucinda Bassett books and I have joined some forums to help me. The forums I have joined are www.anxietyzone.com and www.anxietyzone.org. I just joined them today so I don’t know how much help they are but at least its worth a shot. It will also help me to know that other people are going thru the same thing. Maybe that will help me.

I will probably be going to see a counseler also because I really need to sort out my problems and possibly get on some kind of medication. Wish me luck!

10,000 Books

I have recently started another new blog. This blog is about all the books I read. I have this strange notion to read 10,000 books in my life time. Since I am young I should be able to accomplish this.

My Other Blog is www.10000booksread.blogspot.com

Check it out.

Yes. I keep a diary.

I admit it. I am 24, married for almost 7 years and keep a diary. I have kept a diary since i was little. its an excellent unloader and way to keep family events. Of all the diaries I have had I only have my last two. I no longer have the ones from when I was little or even first married. I wish I did. I never knew that a diary could be more then just writing and i am just discovering that fact. I have recently just started writing letters to Desiree Montgomery. Desiree is my alter ego. She's living the life that I used to want to live. I am now even pasting things into it. (I have a picture of Bruce Willis from Armageddon.) and even drawing pictures in it. Pretty soon I will need a need a new one and have many plans for it. I will probably keep writing to my alter ego. I can really let loose at her and she doesn't complain. Maybe I will try to add some scrapbooking stuff to it. So as of now I am in the look out for a new diary. I know it will never be famous as Anne Franks but she wasn't writing for an audience. She was just trying to survive.

Constantly Distracted Writer

Saturday night everybody was gone and the house was empty. Perfect chance for me to do some writing without any distractions right? Wrong. I got distraced by my phone  and a book I was reading amd ended up doing nothing. I am constantly finding myself distracted while I am trying to write even though I have a writing space with a door. I either get an email and that makes me go online to look at something else or my husband will come in and ask me something (completely disregarding the do not disturb sign). I need to find a writing partner or someone that I can use as a way to stay accountable. I have tried to use my husband (he just says 'uh huh' and 'good'). I've tried to write down daily to do lists. So far nothing has helped. I just dont know what to do. I will continue to try and find a way to stay accountable although doing this could be considered getting distracted.

Unpacking and writing

We have been moved in since the 7th and still arent unpacked. I just dont know where to put it all. There are odds and ends that dont seem to belong in this new house.  The only that I managed to unpack is my writing area. I have turned a portion of my walk in closet in to it. I even have a do not disturb sign on the door. The rest of the closet is left in boxes but i still have my writing desk.